It's you, for you at the end

Why is it so hard? Why does it get so lonely? How do I make myself believe there’s love in this world after I ended up losing everything because of it? When you see the world in someone’s eyes, how do you go back to seeing them normally? If I could go back in time and not bump into you, I’d do it. If I could change things, I’d have. You see, we human beings end up giving someone so much. We don’t think twice before giving the love we have to ourselves. We end up making big decisions just to make someone so happy only for them to leave right after. I feel everyone deserves to get the type of love they give. The wholesome, cliché, and little dramatic type of love. The magical eyes, soothing voice, the patting on your head while you are asleep on their lap, you deserve it all. We give so much at times that we forget we are draining ourselves of it. We crave the love we give, yet settle for so much less than what we deserve. It’s a little scary to me that we never know what someone’s real intentions could be. Everything they say or feel could be one massive lie, can’t it? Sometimes people have such a major impact on you and your life. You bring massive changes in you and your life, just for the person to wake up one day and decide they don’t want to be in your life anymore. It is cruel. But you know what I’d suggest? The love you give to them, try giving some of it to yourself. If you are low on your energy, make some coffee for yourself, sit in your room and let everything that goes through your head sink in. Take yourself out on dates, look in the mirror and give yourself compliments. Give yourself everything you would give to someone you love because at the end of the day it’s you who’s going to be there for yourself and not them.